Contradiction

I'm at some kind of pivotal point in my revision process and there's this feeling like maybe my manuscript is finally taking shape the way I'd like it to and it's getting me excited! 

At the same time, I'm running behind on the schedule I set for myself and it's potentially going to cost me (more on this later when things are more settled). All this is making me feel a whole lot like giving up because there are still some unresolved parts in my story and I don't always know what to do about them. I don't know if I can work them out, honestly. It's tempting to just give in and let this manuscript collect dust alongside the many abandoned projects I've accumulated over the years. 

It's such a struggle! Aargh! And that is why I felt I ought to pause at this juncture and come tell you about it. 

It's like the best and the worst of moments, all at once. 

I suppose every author reaches a point like this. And then, I guess, what separates the victors from the rest is what choices are made in moments like these. 

In the words of one of my main characters, "the best way to move forward is to push through". That's what I'm still doing for now. 

Here's to hoping I'll finally make it to the end!